In the beginning...... the first 3 words of our beloved book the Bible. We know that God gets ready to tell us how he created everything and why.
In my beginning of my walk with God, I was full of void. Depressed, angry, hurt, a marriage of convenience, mother of 3 kiddos and a high school diploma. Not much of a future for me. Who would want to hire an over stressed woman who was constantly moody and only a high school education. My kids were the only reason I stayed in the marriage and friends were the only reason I got out of the house.
A good friend one day invited the kids and I to a fall festival at her church and I thought, why not? What would be the harm of letting my kids have some fun even if it was at a church.
I always knew there was a God, but I was sure he wouldn't want me around. Plus the last church I had attended had damaged emotionally over judging me. I wanted nothing to do with the church. I went with her and her family and for the first time in a very long time I felt at ease. I truly enjoyed the service, the people were genuinely friendly and that was the beginning of my change.
In the beginning.... a wretch, sinner, ugly on the inside and full of anger. Now I am being cleaned, in love with my husband, depression is at bay (a lil help from my happy pill), many wonderful church family members and now my children are learning to love and rely on God.
For those who knew me in the past would not recognized the new me. Not a physical change except for some wrinkle, grey hairs and a few extra pounds but on the inside. The more important part of a change.
I would like to invite you to join me on my journey with God. What I have learned in the past 7 years, and what I learn every day. I am not perfect, I still make mistakes, and will even share those with you.
My hope is that God can someday use me for his glory.
